I have been the guy experiencing the events of my life over the last 3.75 years or so, but a big part of me feels like I was just watching it.
And that’s not a bad thing. I’m invested, motivated, all the things – but I am also just watching.
The latest in the episodes of me that I am watching is the purchase of a new place just outside of Nashville in Lebanon, TN. This event, more than any other, is one of the biggest events
in the last 20+ years of my life. (Side note the real estate market here is just as whacko as everywhere else and stacked on top of that I had some very for real false items on my credit report that were a nightmare to get removed. I have been in and out of
cheap hotels for a full year as I commuted back and forth from Nashville to LA – lower Alabama – to be with dogs and family.)
When my wife earned her ticket to pure light and love I expected that all the special days would be the hardest – holidays, birthdays, all the typical ones, but they weren’t.
There definitely are some consistent difficult scenarios but for the most part, our connection has had a good hold even though it is through a veil. Also, I am very lucky in that I have
a beautiful connection with my family. My parents, my kids, my grandkids, siblings, and my fur kids are all more important to me than I think they realize.
Now as I watch me, I see a first that I really had never even thought to consider. Faced with it I am having to process so many other things. I’m buying a home and going on this big adventure
Somethings we move on from or distance, be it time or space, causes energy to dissipate in the strength of the connection. Every instance gives us a chance to reaffirm who we are or gives
us an opportunity to choose anew. We all are given a myriad of choices every day to decide who it is we are and who we want to be. I can experience what this is and at the same time, I am witnessing it.
So here’s to what’s coming next! I look forward to experiencing it as well as witnessing it, solo but not alone.